For the Week of November 5 - 11, 2018:
Many of us have hit dark spots in recent months. We have doubted, we
questioned, we have grieved, and we have felt hopeless.
When a shattering in our life occurs, it affords us the opportunity to dive
deeply into our own heart and soul. It allows us to divest ourselves of our
masks, our preconceptions, our made up stuff about our lives as a whole.
A shattering in its very essence strips away everything familiar and
customary. The experience can feel like dying because it truly is the death
of an outworn part of us. In the process, we are swept along, caught in
the rip tide and we can do nothing but surrender.
For many of us, surrender does not come easily. Baring our souls to
ourselves can be frightening, but letting go of that “control” we think we
have over our lives is terrifying and humbling.
I speak to you from that deep place of let go. There is freedom here and a
welcoming remembrance that this is who we truly are. Hearts soften and
open, hands reach out, with judgment left behind knowing that
connection to the Oneness is all that matters. It is here that we discover
that our Lights are eternal and unquenchable.
For weeks now I have heard these three words over and over in my mind:
Faith. Trust. Responsibility. I have meditated on them repeatedly, and
found my ego wanting to be dismissive of these familiar words and
concepts.
But the deeper I fell, the more clearly I heard these three simple words that
carry so much weight. We are all traversing unfamiliar territory these days,
leaving our lives and our very futures uncertain. I have had moments of
hopelessness and helplessness. At times, I have been able to observe the
morass of emotion from the observer’s perch. At other times, I have
simply wallowed.
Finally, in that deep place, I let go of the illusion of safety and control and
who I thought I was and what I thought my life was. I simply sat in the
deep dark silence deep within myself. I had no words, and even now, I am
struggling to articulate that experience, and I am seldom at a loss for
words.
As I dwelt in that dark place and allowed my self the fullness of this
experience, I lost my anger, my fear, my need to know and control. Every
part of the story I had told myself simply faded away. The darkness
became gentle and comforting and very womb like.
In that deep silence, a door opened within me. I have no idea what the
door is or where it leads but I know that I am well and whole, that I am not
alone even when it feels like I am, and that there is so much more to me
than I ever imagined. I don’t know where - if anywhere - any of this leads.
What I do know is that faith, trust and responsibility are guideposts. This
not our first rodeo. We know how to do this, even if we are being asked to
give more, break more and be more this time. We are being asked to
remember and more importantly, embody the purpose, the covenant of
our experience here on earth at this time.
The time for play is over. We are Earth children no longer. We are divine
beings with a divine heritage and purpose. I ask you to feel the truth of
that within your heart and soul. Let go now, shed the outworn and
remember. This is our responsibility and commitment. I have no idea what
we will find or create but I am absolutely certain, with faith and trust filling
my heart to overflowing, that it will be something amazing.
***This channeled guidance column was written by Jan Finley for TheCosmicPath.com. It may be shared freely, but only when the author’s name and website are included.
Comments 6
Thank you Dear Jam for sharing your experience.I can so relate to everything you shared. I loved when you compared the darkness to the womb. And the door opening and being comfortable in the not knowing……..AND the certainty of remembering our divine purpose and heritage. I’m sure I will revisit your words this week when I need to remember………Much LOVE Peg
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Thank you Jan! Your words really touched my Heart and my Soul. I can relate to every word and I am at peace. Much Love <3
Thank you Jan – I so appreciate the profound sharing of your vulnerability. That is what creates the resonation …. Much love
Dear Jan,
I have been here
“Finally, in that deep place, I let go of the illusion of safety and control and
who I thought I was and what I thought my life was. I simply sat in the
deep dark silence deep within myself. I had no words, and even now, I am
struggling to articulate that experience, and I am seldom at a loss for
words”
I also know that
The time for play is over. We are Earth children no longer. We are divine
beings with a divine heritage and purpose. I ask you to feel the truth of
that within your heart and soul. Let go now, shed the outworn and
remember.”
We get to be in the Divine Play now, it is a little, or a lot unknown, however, I believe your words and experiences in this channel were clearing the path for many not just yourself. Letting go, surrender, knowing we are not the Doer, is tough, but it is what has taking place.
Thank-you so much for your words and sharing that deep place within yourself, as it helps us all KNOW NOW WE are never alone.
WE have lots of power NOW, and guess WE need to learn how to use it in faith, trust, and responsibility. The more Light I emit, the dark surfaces and shatters in myself and others.
I am with you as I am sure many are.
Again with great gratitude, respect and love,
Thank you, Jan, for sharing. I visited that deep dark place yesterday, when communicating with my dentist. I knew clearly what the problem was as “i have done that rodeo before”, but I was not trusted to diagnose myself. They simply had to take an x-ray and charge me for the visit before they would give me the prescription I needed. It was explained to me that they had to do that for THEIR protection; it wasn’t about me, the patient, it was about them. So I felt that frustration and seethed at what I felt was an abuse of power as I stared at my shoes so as not to engage, and to consider my options. And then I found the original pain, that of not being able to do everything by/for myself. My sense of independence/power/control over my life felt threatened. In the big picture, isn’t that what this nation is fighting over?