Thursday, March 17, 2016
My brother-in-law passed away suddenly on March 9th, and I learned a great deal about observing my thoughts and emotions, and discerning one from the other. Often we think about our emotions rather than feel them, and confuse emotionality with rationality. At tender times like these, where the energies are so high, we need to feel our feelings, name them and let them through. When we do, they don’t fester within us, subtly directing our thoughts and actions until we are separate from ourSelves. Like waves they arise, then fall and dissipate and we watch them go. Unacknowledged emotions gather momentum until they break through the levee of suppression and overwhelm us, resulting in words and actions that can’t be undone. The damage they cause is just as devastating as a tsunami. It helped me to go deeper and ask myself, ‘is this a thought or a feeling?’ If it was the latter, I could quiet my mind and let it step aside, so the feeling could come through in all its glory, in waves of tears, sadness and grief. As the emotion receded I would feel drained, yet peaceful and cleansed, ready to resume a conversation or comfort another, until the next wave came. At the service we shared tears, and laughter as well. Nothing heals a hurting heart like laughter; it releases the pressure and lets love flow outwards.
There has never been a more important time to consciously be aware of our thoughts and direct them with Love. From the observer’s perch we can determine if an emotion is driving our thoughts; if we are picking up others’ emotions and holding them as our own; if the constant low-level patter of our minds is becoming too loud and draining our energies, infecting us with anxiety and fear, which begets anger and more; as we seek to raise our energies and relieve the pressure of the having them circulate wildly with no place for expression. Some people confuse excess energy as anxiety or fear, and it can manifest as palpitations when it just needs to be expressed in physical movement as dance or exercise, or even singing. All must be allowed to flow.
We are all attracted to those who have positive energy; they are so open, they seem to have so much life in them; they go with the flow. They allow their energies to move through them, and try not to let thoughts and feelings get stuck. But it is a conscious process of allowing things to surface without judgment or analysis, and with awareness and acknowledgement. And love. That’s when we consciously choose to give ourselves an inner hug, and love ourselves with our minds by choosing to tell ourselves positive, kind thoughts (“ I was able to exercise today, I AM strong and persevering”) even if we don’t feel it. Thoughts can bring us up or down; why not choose the former?
Today’s energies features a Mercury/Chiron/Earth Star Chakra (South Node) new cycle, or conjunction. Mercury and Chiron coming together speak to our healing (and wholing) ourselves through loving thoughts and actions. In the limitless realm of Pisces, these thoughts and actions reverberate, touching us on many levels. Conversely, as we heal ourselves, we teach ourselves to be more aware of our thinking and direct it more positively. Having the Earth Star Chakra as part of this healing—how rare is that, connecting with this cycle?—allows us to acknowledge the issues from the past that present to us now, with their old feelings and thoughts that no longer serve us but which still affect and direct us without our awareness. Here is our chance to see these issues, thoughts and feelings for the gifts they are, take what we need from them; and bless and let the rest go. Doing this we lighten and erase our karma, allowing us to go forth and cross the bridge to the Soul Star Chakra (North Node) into our futures with more love, compassion and awareness. Every smile, every loving thought, every word of kindness heals us all.